Sunday, November 7, 2010

And So It Goes...

We were singing in church today and something sparked a memory and I am hearing the doctors and nurses telling us that Knox is probably not going to live and if he does he won't be the boy we know. I toss that one out. Then I am remembering a well-intentioned but harsh letter reminding us that we have other children and not to neglect them by spending all our time with Knox. I toss that one out. Where do these come from? Why now? Focus.
Then we are taking communion. Creed is on my lap and we are singing You Are my All in All and we get to the chorus:

Jesus, Lamb of God
Holy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Holy is Your name

I am thinking about communion and feasting and being in the presence of God. Knox can sing this face to face. I am pretty certain there is no earthly word to describe what that is like. There I am again, partaking and praising, and feeling in the presence of God and sharing a moment with Knox. I find myself wanting to tell Creed...we are all together; doing the same thing; the gap is being bridged and knowing he can't understand, but one day he will.