Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Knox and Creed

On my mother's day post, I wrote this about Creed:

I always think of him being a bit more innocent not knowing the pain of losing Knox, but at the same time I think he "knows" him ...

and I said that I might blog about it later. I realized when I wanted to blog about the pictures below, that my thoughts on Creed knowing Knox fit in with this post. I have kind of hesitated to write some of this because in a way it some of it seems sort of mystical or farfetched, but maybe it is just a mom that looks for comforting things.

Since Creed was itty-bitty he has always looked up when we were outside. I'd get him out of the van and he'd look up. As soon as he could point, he'd look up and point. So I'd talk to him about the sky, the clouds, the stars. I know it really doesn't have to mean anything, but I always have felt like it was a connection to Knox since we tend to talk about the heavens above.

I wear a locket around my neck that has an engraved picture of Knox. Creed has always wanted to look at it and I'd tell him that it was Knox who is his brother. I think I mentioned once before that I felt like it was their hugs to each other. On his own one day, he started giving it a kiss.

Another interesting thing is how he recognizes pictures of Knox. Kids his age have a hard time identifying people that they don't see day in and day out in pictures. One day Creed was beside me and I was looking through some stuff and he saw a picture of Knox he had never seen before. He pointed right at it and said, "That Knox!" It really rather floored me that he knew that was Knox especially since pictures of Knox can really look like Creed.

I was relaying some of this to a friend of mine one day and feeling a bit silly especially the part about the sky, and she told me that she really didn't think it was farfetched to think that God could have created Creed with some sort of knowledge of Knox. Not that he would know the details or such of his life but that he would have a sense of him as his brother. There is no way of knowing if that is true or not, but I thought it was a pretty cool though and definitely not out of the scope of God's character.

Now to the pictures...One of the things we did on April 23rd was to get out the quilt that the ladies of our church gave us on Knox's 2nd birthday. We hadn't had it out in a while and Creed really had never had a chance to explore it. We laid it out on the living room floor and the kids showed Creed all the squares and told him many things about their brother. Creed loved it!
Anne Michal showing Creed some pictures.

Jack wanted Creed to look at every little thing!

Creed pointing to a decal of Thomas the Train. I think this was his favorite square since Thomas is practically his best friend.
A shot to get a look at a good bit of the quilt.


One of the number squares... The kids reminded me that I need to put a picture of Creed in the #6 square.
Emma showing the picture of Knox and herself in the #3 spot since she is the third child.
Creed also loves to look at this little photo book my mom had made of pictures of our family with Knox. He has been asking to look at it almost every day lately.

9 comments:

anewday said...

Oh Rachel. I don't think it's at all far fetched. I love the thought that God might have created Creed with a sense of Knox. God can surely do that if He so desires and it brings tears to my eyes to think of that being perhaps one answer to the prayers for comfort spoken for you and your dear family. (((((HUG)))))

Dana Lewis said...

How precious. Creed is truly a balm to your hearts in so many ways.

ninepoundhammer said...

That's awesome.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

so sweet!!!

carishepard said...

That quilt is such a precious memory. I'm so glad you have it to share with Creed. BTW, he is such a precious little one.

Carla said...

Rachel, that is precious! I'm so glad you are sharing the quilt with Creed!

Anonymous said...

What a sweet post.

-Lori

Jamison said...

I loved reading this....my heart feels so full! I think Creed's connections are very true and very real--what a neat discovery.
I love those kids of yours....thanks for posting. :)